Welcome back, everyone. I know that’s been quite a while since my last post but we’ve had a tragedy happen here at The Fox Den and I couldn’t really do much of anything let alone put how I was feeling into words. I still don’t really know how to talk about it or write about it; it still breaks my heart to think about it. Cana passed away.
We picked her up from the airport on Friday and she started vomiting on Wednesday. We took her to the vet and they told us that she had parvo. Parvo, or canine parvovirus, is a highly contagious virus that affects the intestinal tract and white blood cells which results in vomiting and diarrhea to the point of severe dehydration or infection because of the attack on the white blood cells and lowered immune system. There is no cure, there is only supportive care. That means that the vets can support the body until the virus runs it’s course or until the puppy passes away.
We did everything we could for Cana. We spared no expense. She was at the vet during the day and at the emergency clinic at night getting IV fluids, antibiotics and anti nausea medication. She was getting better Monday morning, she wasn’t as lethargic, she was starting to show signs of improvement… and then her heart just stopped. Her little body just couldn’t take it. We went to pick her up on Monday evening to bring her to the emergency clinic for the night and the vet told us that she had died. It was the worst, most gut-wrenching moment when the vet told us the news.
We only had her for 10 days but we loved her so much in that time. From the moment we picked her up from the airport we were hooked. I don’t know how to put into words how profoundly her life impacted ours, even though we knew her for such a short time. I loved how she would roll onto her back for belly rubs and hide her face under her little paws when she was sleeping. I love how she would whine to come up on the couch so she could be close to us. I loved watching her sleep.
I’m so angry. We wanted a puppy so much, I’ve been counting down for so long, we were so prepared, we did everything right. And then she got sick and we still did everything we could to save her. There are so many people out there in the world that have a dog that they take for granted, that they get on a whim, that they don’t love, that they give away or put up for adoption when things get tough. As soon as we met Cana we knew she was our family and we’d do anything for her. It’s just not fair and I’m angry at the universe because this happened to us and to Cana.
She got so sick; it was so hard to watch. We went to visit her at the vet for hours every day and we just saw her get sicker and sicker, losing weight and her will. When we picked her up from the airport the first thing I said to Brandon was, “I just want her to be happy” and I honestly can’t say if she ever was truly happy. She was just starting to settle in and get to know us when she got sick. I don’t know if she knew how much we loved her.
People who don’t have pets won’t understand how devastating it is. They don’t know how they are your family. I don’t really know what to do from here. I don’t know how people go back to being normal after something like this. How do people move on like nothing happened? The only solace is that we did everything we possibly could. That being said, she still passed away so I don’t know how much solace that is. I just miss her and I want her back.
She will always be our first dog and she will always have a special place in our hearts. I don’t know what we’ll do from here but I know that will never change. As hard as this time has been for Brandon and I, the love and support that we’ve gotten from friends and family has honestly really helped. To everyone out there that went through this with us (you know who you are) thank you, thank you, thank you. Cana had so many people rooting for her while she was sick. If love could have healed her, it would have.
Thank you again for the support. I love you all.